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I am become my father

May 4th, 2009

Lately I have been seeing a lot of my father.

He has been hanging around the house quite a lot and I have been enjoying the comfort of familiarity.  Those expressions of movement, the mannerisms, and the general deportment that I remember so well from times gone by.

You must realise that my father passed over nearly thirty years ago, but I am not cracking up.  I am not seeing ghosts.  What I am seeing is as real as you or me.

It struck me earlier today that I was seeing him vividly.  The only thing was that I was seeing him from inside, not outside.

As I grew up, in common with most children I felt my father was ancient.  In my case, he was in his late forties when I was born so he always was pretty old compared to me.

As I grew, he was the solid rock of dependability that steered us through life, and I always felt that once my father was around, that all would be right with the world.

Now what I am seeing is his mannerisms that I have subconsciously adapted.  I see his walk, his distinctive movements, almost his thought patterns, for I have reached the age that he was at when I remember him the best.

It is quite comforting really.

I am become my father.